I have dug myself deeper into the grave.
(words have been paraphrased. conversation is fictional but you get the gist.)
You: Was there someone you have been with and yet you didn't talk the whole time and there were no awkward silences?
Me: Yes.
You: How many?
Me: One.
You: With who?
Me: I can't tell.
*after a few more convincing moments*
You: Fine. If you can't say it, we'll both write it on tissue then we'll open it together.
Me: Fine.
*I write mine, you write yours.*
You: Are we going to open this now?
Me: No! Let's open it when I have graduated already.
You: No!!! Let's open it now!
Me: I'll flip a coin on it. Heads is yes.
*Coin says heads.*
I read mine. You wrote your ex-girlfriend's name and me. I wrote your name that I never used to refer to you with an arrow pointing down.
You: I don't get it.
Me: What part of it don't you get??? *places the tissue on the table so the arrow points to him*
Yeah. You're that remarkable in my life.
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Honestly, I missed the feeling of you holding me by the waist and leaning on your shoulder. It's one of the best feelings I have felt ever. I just might not get it back anymore. :(
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